You have no idea about the dilemma I’m in. I was trapped by the world, with no Redeemer to come. The only one I can depend on is my self.

Peace is a luxury in the world. Maybe much more than that, it’s a miracle, especially for me a person can’t choose my own place on the earth. I’d like to flee to Mars, if I can.

How could I be in solitude mentally, but still stay in prison of people physically?

Survival is a murder, it killed me and leave my body undone.

I can’t escape for the so-called responsibility. I want to escape for I want to be me. So what should I do?

Maybe I should just bury me in the dusts like the crowds do.

Ahead of that, I will killed my soul to free it.